Be

One of my friends Amber has such a way with words & thoughts. I enjoy reading her blog (sorry it's private!) because she has the most wonderful things to say to bring me back to earth & back to the heart of this life. Today she made a beautiful & real post about cracking down those facades we all place up. It made me decide that I would go ahead & make this post about what's been weighing so heavily on my mind the past couple of weeks. I often don't post things like this because I am not the most eloquent person when it comes to my words. I always know what I want to say but when I write it, it never really seems as pretty. But today, I'm not concerned. Today I'm going to be be real & honest & vulnerable.

I loose sight all to often of what is truly important in this life. I have been thinking so much lately about my potential as a being in this world. I constantly wonder if I'm contributing enough not only for my own life but for my family, friends for my job for those that I have even the tiniest bit of influence over. Do I really let my light shine in a way that will make others stop & see the kindness I have to offer. Do I act in a way that let's others trust me & have faith in me. Am I true to the person I want to become. The answer is always, I just don't know. But, I am learning one tiny baby step in front of the other that it's ok to make mistakes, it's ok to not know where I am going even when I think do, it's ok to be happy even when so many others around me are struggling beyond belief. It's ok to be sad on days when you just feel lost. I am so hard on myself all the time, I always have been. I will say it today & I'm sure I'll have to remind myself a million times over. IT'S NEVER TO LATE TO BE WHO YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE!!! We all need to take a deep breath & stop being so self critical & so judgmental about others. You never know how just the smallest of comments can literally make or break someone in a given moment.

Take a risk. Go out of your comfort zone. Smile. Be present in very moment. Enjoy the little things. Walk with faith & a knowledge that you are a child of God. Be brilliant. Be who you've always wanted to be. Bloom! Make the best out of what life hands you. Don't be afraid to change directions for we really never know when we'll make a right turn. Be true to yourself. We all have so much to offer to this world. I don't know that we even realize it. When it comes to connecting with others, challenge yourself outside your comfort zone.

I admire so many of my friends, here are just a few things I look up to & notice & hope to be more like:
Katy T, you honestly have got to be one of the most witty & amusing people I have met!
Aimee, do you realize just how talented you really are?
Amanda D, do you see how beautiful you are?
Krystin, do you realize you are one of the best listeners I have EVER met?
Jacey, I am constantly amazed at how driven you are.
Dee, you've been there through thick & thin, good, bad & ugly, you truly are the definition of a friend in my book.
Kathi, I hope you can see you're light as bright as the rest of us, it's almost blinding to me at times.

"Our worst fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frighten us. We ask ourselves, 'who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God; your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear our presence automatically liberates others." --Marianne Williamson

Thank you Ambs for giving me courage to say what is written on my heart & reminding me how much I love Marianne for this very reason! I think this quote is simply amazing & I loved your thoughts about 'our potential to be real' this morning! Simply beautiful!!

Thanks to all of you who make my life better & more meaningful. Especially Clint, the single greatest thing that has happened in my life. Thank you for putting up with me & for encouraging me. I love you & I AM the luckiest!