and I didn't even cry...

I survived Mother's day this year & I didn't even cry! A big pat on the back for me!! That's a first in years, progress people! They didn't make us stand up at church, which for me was monumental. They quietly handed out sweet sentiments to all the women as we exited the chapel that are to be a reminder that the Lord will role those stones out of our way so we as women can move his work forward, or that's what I took from it anyway. 

I'm sure some women love to stand & claim thier minute of fame for being the worlds best mother but for me, for those of us of mothering age who don't have children of our own, it's a moment when we feel all eyes are us. A time when you feel like you're at an old navy type establishment with a big fat neon blinking arrow pointing down at you from above, one you can't help but notice. A time when everyone looks & wonders what your story is, why you're standing & your bench is empty, maybe not even noticing before. It's always been tourcher, but this year I didn't experience that. Thank goodness for an inspired Bishop who just had us sit & be still. Thank heavens for those tender mercies of the Lord. I needed them today. I needed to have a good day free from the looks or empathy or question. I was granted that & I am so grateful.

It was just a happy day. A time to spend time with my handsome husband. A time to visit with my Mom, sisters & nieces. A time to take a long nap & not have any time frames or places to run. A day to eat yummy homemade food. A time to stop thinking all together & just roll with the day as it came. Clint was wonderfully sweet & thoughtful all day. I, like most days enjoyed his company, but even more so today. He happily did whatever I asked him to do for me. It's days like today when I really stop & realize he is my best friend & I couldn't get through what potentially could be hard days without him. 

So as this day comes to a close I feel good. I didn't cry, not even once. That tissue I pulled out of my bag prior to service sat unused on the bench. I didn't even feel heartache. I just felt happy & content. And even joy & excitement for the day when I get to stand with a bench full of babies & claim my minute of fame for being the worlds best Mother!