V-to the teaching

I've been thinking about something a lot recently so I thought I'd record it so I can refer back to it one day. A couple weeks ago we had a Visiting Teaching conference in Relief Society. The Relief Society president arranged for all the men in the ward to teach all the lessons 3rd hour so all the women could all attend! It was such a blessing to be able to be there & I'm thankful for her intuitiveness. As I was sitting there listening to all these amazing stories about how awesome it has been for some women & how their experiences were life changing. I heard of Visiting Teachers coming to the rescue, bringing in meals, bringing Dr Pepper on a stressful day, comforting, confiding, packing, watching kids, carpooling & many other noble & important things. 

Unfortunately, my experience hasn't been the same. I haven't ever had anything magical or relieving or even touching happen. In fact, I haven't ever really had visiting teachers at all. I haven't made friendships I'll have forever or built a relationship of trust so that I could call on them any time I needed something. Most of the time I don't even have a clue who they are. The few times I have had visits it's typically been 1 of the 2 sisters that is supposed to be visiting me. A few years ago, for about 3 months I had a companionship that came...but one brought her toddler who always destroyed my non-child proof home & who was always dirty, I spent at least a half hour cleaning up after them when they were gone each time. We moved shortly after that & I wasn't too sad because I'd almost preferred them never coming because I dreaded seeing my house afterwords.

The truth is though, I've never been the kind of visiting teacher that others could rely on, so why did I think I deserved 2 wonder women in my life? I've always gone off & on since becoming a visiting teacher, but never have I been faithful in going every month or even checking up on my sisters much other than when we were at her home.So then I started feeling a little guilty like maybe if I were better I'd get better visiting teachers. 

My mind (or rather the spirit) quickly said to me, "Heather it doesn't work that way & you know it. Just do your best & have faith in this program. Your day will come". It really got me thinking. I don't have a strong testimony of having amazing visiting teachers or heck at even being one, but I know that I will. One day. But until that happens, I'm going to keep doing my best. I'm going to keep having faith that this is designed by my Heavenly Father to help & rescue women. I trust that one day when I'm knee deep in laundry & have been up for days with sick babies, when I haven't gone to the grocery store or even thought about dinner, when my car runs out of gas or my husband looses his job that visiting teaching will save the day. Not only will I look forward to that day for myself, but I will try to be more in-tune with the spirit so that as I have a special & sacred stewardship over the ladies I visit that I will know their times of need & be able to rescue & relieve them in whatever way they need.