one of those days

I think we would be lying if we denied we didn't have "one of those days". You know the one, when you wake up & you feel instantly defeated. Today was one of those days for me. I don't know if was the fact that I didn't sleep well, & don't really for the most part ever, or that I wasn't feeling that well or just because I have the stress of the world it seems on my shoulders. It's weird. I didn't feel sad at all, I just felt defeated. I hate days like this. It seems like nothing goes your way, you have so much to do & you get stuff accomplished, but you just feel torn in a million directions.

I think part of it for me is my creativity. Sometimes it gets the best of me because I am the ultimate day dreamer. When I get ideas in my head I feel the urgent need to do something about them, & well right now in my life, that really just isn't the reality for my life. Clint & I started our own floral studio last July & I have to admit, it's been great but it's been tough. It drains me on so many levels. Sometimes I don't even know if my brain even thinks on it's own without a jump start. The business takes so much time, energy & focus that I don't have the freedom or the funds to do the things I would like creatively. I look forward to the day when we have a larger client base so that I can be a little more flexible. Lots running through my mind & lots to make happen. It's just been one of "those" days!